If I am wrong, then let me be wrong. Life seems to drive me a million miles away from every comfort nook I've held dear. Then again, life seems to teach in only contradictions. I won't lie. I am heart-broken at the way you are and if there was every a way or time where my words could stand alone, I would let them come and drench rooms with the storms they hold inside.

The words would have told you that you should have looked closer.

It's hard to say that you should have looked closer at all the moments, when you were at your worst, when you were at your best - when you were standing alone. It hard to say because you'll take my words and twist them. Don't fault me for wanting you to have stood by me the way I stood by you. I stood by you, not because I wanted your loyalty, that would have been nice but that isn't the reason I stood by you. I stood by you because I believed in the good that you were. But in the end, was it all just what I wanted to see? I can't live my life by my mistakes. I won't.

There are lessons in our failures that we can keep,
and that will keep the memories of you sweet.
People shouldn't be kept on pedestals;
No one should.

It will get better.

And there are times we have to let go.

Times where our  faith has to be stronger than our need for control. 

Be scared, be out of your mind frantic 

but be ready for it. 

I don't think it comes as a surprise (to many) that im an emotional person. Everything moves me and I'm constantly trying to find meaning in a hundred different things.. All at once. I may come across as a handful but let me tell you how this handful loves. When I love, I love strongly. I'll defend you, I'll create for you, I'll make sure that in this moment and in every other, I'm there rooting for you. I don't do part time when it comes to all my relationships. Hell yeah I've got issues but I'd rather take my handful of issues and be completely authentic than be part time and float around. Today and every other day, I am for you.