Wednesday, April 30, 2014

April 30, 2014 at 07:34PM



via Instagram http://ift.tt/1nH0aK0 Red sky at night, sailors delight. Red skin in the morn, sailors warning. // 30.4.14

Monday, April 28, 2014

And I'm not the kind to take slaps to my face.

I always say forgive but don't forget but then I realize that you don't truly forgive a person until you forget what they've done. 

And that's the hardest part. 
I find myself dwelling on the mistakes that have been done to me and it constantly causes me to wonder what mistakes I've unknowingly made. I double back, I second-guess, I am ready to give up hope on ever finding a true rock-solid friendship. I know I'm no good at being a friend because people - people should not lean on me. I crumble like a biscuit at the first slight and I know I have issues and I know it's more than some people can take. 

I look back and realize that you've never respected me as a person. Maybe I was your friend but friendships can easily be broken. Respect is much harder to break.

I wish you had respected me enough to ask what was going on. I wish you had respected me enough to not say things like you've had enough. I wish you had respected me enough to see the effort I put in for you both. And I realize, that respect goes both ways but I am flawed and I cannot see past what you've done. How am I supposed to ask you to see past what I've done - even though I don't know what it is I've done.

I miss having someone to talk to, to laugh with, to be myself with but I don't miss you because what you've done feels like a slap in the face. And I'm not the kind to take slaps to my face.

Thursday, April 24, 2014

Black Out.

Blackout nap where when you are awaken from your nap it feels like everything before the nap never exsisted.

Tuesday, April 22, 2014

April 23, 2014 at 11:08AM



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Sunday, April 20, 2014

April 21, 2014 at 02:09PM



via Instagram http://ift.tt/1muaaGg Everything good starts with Bismillah. #YEAR3 #IWOKEUPLIKETHIS

Thursday, April 17, 2014

April 17, 2014 at 06:55PM



via Instagram http://ift.tt/1j5Kiem Impromtu lunch at JB with my two darlings. Im grateful every step in RP has brought me to meeting awesome people!

Tuesday, April 15, 2014

Do you ever feel like some moments are meant to be?

Do you ever feel like some moments are meant to be?


 Like today I woke up early enough that the sun had not yet risen and the moon had not been outshone. It was there just shinning like a perfect circle and then I thought back to the night I just had. I didn't get much sleep and had a full day the next day but the time I spent not sleeping was hardly wasted. The world was still asleep and I felt like I was in on a huge secret. The world is beautiful after all.

Sometimes moments become so perfect and precious that you have to protect them, embellish them, hold on to them because they become the anchors that hold you down. 




Sunday, April 13, 2014

I’m self-sufficient

I’m self-sufficient. I spend a lot of time on my own and I shut off quite easily. When I communicate, I communicate 900 per cent, then I shut off, which scares people sometimes.






Bjork on ‘Self-Sufficiency’

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Saturday, April 12, 2014

April 12, 2014 at 08:25PM



via Instagram http://ift.tt/1gk8pUs Superhero love yo.

Thursday, April 10, 2014

April 10, 2014 at 06:27PM



via Instagram http://ift.tt/1hk4aN4 Look who's here to wish you Happy Birthday @skxnnybxtch ! HAPPY NOT?! jagan lupe eh nnti you kene kawin dua. Hehehe. Happy Birthday Syam! Sayang kauu:*

Wednesday, April 9, 2014

The tears will come and it's real

Wanting to cry is better than feeling numb because the tears will come and it's real, it's fresh and raw and really feeling something. Which means that it will pass. 

When I'm numb nothing comes to mind. everything is expected and everything is cold. 
I always liked the cold but not this kind of cold. This kind of cold isolates you and ravages you. It seeks to slice you off from the world.  Like an iceberg set adrift. 

Tuesday, April 8, 2014


I'll light a fire from
the dust and ashes of my past 
and from them I will rise


My bones will burn and ache,

they will scar and bend 
they will boil and break 

But they will float 
and then from the ashes of them 
I will rise

c.a

Tuesday, April 1, 2014

April 02, 2014 at 12:41AM



via Instagram http://ift.tt/1fL2bwB Tell him to be careful with making friends. You can know their face but you can't their heart.

April 02, 2014 at 12:33AM



via Instagram http://ift.tt/1glykKH Back to Temasek for a preview of Teatro's production with the usuals. Always a good night with them. #teatrofest2014