Sometimes, I really  don't know what to do with myself.


And sometimes my imagination kicks into hyperdrive and I have


THE BEST DAY DREAMS EVER.


& i promise you if my vacation is ruined because of issues...
THERE WILL BE A WHOLE NEW BLOODY ISSUE TO SORT OUT. AND IT'D PROBABLY BE YOUR BODY.

we clear?

27 Things That Will Make Your Life Easier, Period | Thought Catalog

27 Things That Will Make Your Life Easier, Period | Thought Catalog

August 28, 2013 at 11:52PM

via Instagram http://instagram.com/p/dkATBPnzfm/ Favorite tuesday bunch ♥

Oh dang.

Cookies for cock-ups?

My laptop went scroll-tastic and is.now on the fritz. Obv, I'm posting via  my HTC.

So um, cookies anybody??

Under lock and ego.

All along, it was a fever.
A cold sweat hot-headed believer.
I threw my hands in the air, said, "Show me something"
He said, "If you dare come a little closer"
- Stay, Rihanna ft Mikky Ekko

I think all along I've been believing that people have the intention of doing wrong by me. Maybe that's why I tend to go off the chart at the first hint of a slash. Truth is, unintentionally, we slash and grind at each other all the time. Words, or actions are like sandpaper to us. They grind a person down.

And when you grind and grind, you tend to hit the core - and my core is sensitive.

If I were to be honest - and push aside my ego and pride - I'd have to say that I'm sorry.

I'm sorry to all the people who I've pushed away - believing that your intention was to hurt me.
I'm sorry to all the people who I've grinned down -my actions and words sometimes aren't filtered.
I'm really really sorry to those who tried to reach out only to feel me pull away. Sometimes my ego and hurt get the best of me.

Sometimes it's not them - it's you.

And maybe I've lost friends because of this. And maybe I tell them that I can't give a damn. And maybe I think about them ever so often. And maybe I have our pictures up on a board so I never lose sight of their smile and everything we've shared.

And maybe I miss them but then maybe it's too little to late.

Questions to ask people

1. What is one thing you will never do again?

2. Would you rather be twice as smart or twice as happy?

3. What happened the last time you cried?

4. What happened the time in your life when you were the most nervous to do something?

5. What would your parents be surprised to learn about you?

6. What’s your worst habit?

7. What superpower would you have for one day?

8. What fictional character do you have the biggest crush on?

9. Where would you live if you could live anywhere in the world?

10. What is your most bizarre pet peeve?

11. Who knows you the best?

12. What after school activities did you do in high school?

13. What “most likely to” superlative would you be most honored to receive?

14. What’s the last book you really loved?

15. What was the greatest television show of all time?

16. What’s been your favorite age so far?

17. If you could go back in time, what is one piece of advice you would give your younger self?

18. What one thing would you be most disappointed if you never got to experience it?

19. Apologize or ask permission?

20. Unlimited love or money?

21. If you knew you would die in one week, what would you do?

22. What’s your most listened to song?

23. Beach vacation or European vacation?

24. If you could have been a child prodigy what would you have wanted to be skilled at?

25. What’s the first thing you would do if you won the lottery?

26. What celebrity would you trade lives with?

27. If you were a performing artist, what would you title your first album?

28. What story do your friends still give you crap about?

29. If earth could only have one condiment for the rest of time, what would you pick to keep around?

30. What is the ideal number of people to have over on a Friday night?

31. What was the worst age you’ve been so far?

32. What is your weirdest dealbreaker?

33. What fictional character reminds you most of yourself?

34. Do you believe in karma?

35. What was your favorite TV show as a kid?

36. What is the weirdest thing you find attractive in a person?

37. What Jeopardy! category would you clear, no problem?

38. What is something you’re superstitious about?

39. What is the scariest experience you have ever had?

40. Who is a non-politician you wish would run for office?

41. What cheesey song do you have memorized?

42. What one dead person would you most like to have dinner with, if it were possible?

43. Do you think it’s important to stay up to date with the news?

44. What is the best present you’ve ever received?

45. Would you give up one of your fingers if it meant you’d have free wifi wherever you go, for the rest of your life?

46. What’s the first thing you’d do if you were the opposite sex for one day?

47. If someone told you you could give one person a present and your budget was unlimited–what present would you get and for whom?

48. What is the nicest thing someone could say about you?

49. Giant house in a subdivision or tiny house somewhere with a view?

50. What is the weirdest quirk your family has?

“Just remember that sometimes, the way you think about a person isn’t the way they actually are.”

I have never regretted leaving any of my boyfriends behind, but I think 80 years from now, I'd regret leaving all my friends behind. 

I should've said I missed you,

I should've said  what I felt. 

I should've fix it when I had the chance. 

I am the hero of this story; 

I don't need to be saved.

August 24, 2013 at 09:12AM

via Instagram http://instagram.com/p/dYIXWDHzWo/ Last Friday with counseling classmates. Andy, true to nature, gave us something better than pizza!

You know there will be days 

When you're so tired 

That you can't take another step 

The nights will have no stars 

And you'll think you've gone as far 

As you will ever get 

I can't really say
Why everybody wishes that they were somewhere else
But in the end the only steps that matter
Are the ones you take all by yourself

- Can't go back now, The Weepies

my shit list is so long I practically have more people on it than off it.
seems like everybody agreed to piss me of this week
i'm done here.

and numb.
so very, very numb.

Don't wanna close my eyes

I don't wanna fall asleep

Cause I'd miss you babe

And I don't wanna miss a thing

Cause even when I dream of you

The sweetest dream will never do

I'd still miss you babe

And I don't wanna miss a thing

Cause even when I dream of you, the sweetest dream would never do
I still miss you babe.

With me, there's a limit. It's a very flexible limit but once you break it, you'll cease to exist to me.  

Guys, this is chicken pole dancing. 

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WHERE HAVE YOU BEEN ALL MY LIFE CHICKEN? 

 I know beautiful friendships are from love

 because when you hear their voices —

 no matter how long it’s been or 

how much of their lives have become a mystery to you —

 it will sound like home.

from here.

August 16, 2013 at 06:35PM

via Instagram http://instagram.com/p/dEigKjnzcL/ Got you back. So farnie!

August 13, 2013 at 10:36PM

via Instagram http://instagram.com/p/c9PpVQHzSW/ @nrlamrxh & @zahidbinmalik satu happy, satu takut nak mampos.

August 13, 2013 at 06:41PM

via Instagram http://instagram.com/p/c80vJMnzUm/ Is it too late to back out? :(

August 13, 2013 at 12:57AM

via Instagram http://instagram.com/p/c67AkBnzTm/ All big girl, big boy already! #rayahugs

August 11, 2013 at 11:06PM

via Instagram http://instagram.com/p/c4JcKBHzdT/ Family. Duty. Honor.

If I were in a culture that it would be okay to leave home once you turn 18, these suckers would have stopped seeing me 5 years ago.

What hurts the most

Was being so close

And havin' so much to say

And watchin' you walk away

August 04, 2013 at 03:42PM

via Instagram http://instagram.com/p/clVEB8nzYb/ I hope you feel the hurt that i feel. I hope you it crushes you like a goddamn truck, that sinking feeling of loss. I hope that when you look me you lose your smile. I hope that everytime you visit old memories, im there, so everytime you think of me, i hope you hurt so bad. I hope that you move on and forget me, then one day see me again and it hits you like a train how much you've missed. I hope when you've got new friends, they'll know you but it'll never be the same. But most of all, i hope you still think about me.

The truth.

The horrible truth about best friends are that they might not be the happiness parade you've expected. They, very literally, are just the few people among the whole bunch of people are better than the rest. Unfortunately, this whole, "better than the rest" deal only works if you have pretty good friends already. 

Oh and the whole "We're BFFLS" (Best Friends For Life Suckers) is not a mutually exclusive deal. You can call someone your BFFLS but you might not be their BFFS. 

Shocking, no?